You Loved Me,Not Love Me.

Because You Loved Me-Celine Dion

Got this song from Momo and i felt emo again..

i do really feel much better this few days..

some one really beside me and give me his hand all the time when i need.

i know some one is just pass by in my life.

but its really make up my life..

he push me to the top of the sky and dump me into the ground...

im having a new chapter in my life now after the person gone..

im trying so hard to let it go...

and i need to thx for what he had teach me.

he had wake me up when im suffer.

but some one is still not giving me up..

i feel guilty every time..

really thx a lot to him too.

i need to appologize to him long time ago.

but seem like he dont want what i did for him.

i know what he want.

but can just let me take a break...

have a deep fresh breath...

both of us had been so hurt in love..

i fulfill what we having right now..

its true..

i got to go tonight...13days.

i tot i can be a brand new pat after 3months time in Ns.

90days exchange with 13days..

i dont think i can done it pretty...

but atlease i try.

good luck for me.

loves,

pat.

Love is Important,But it Not All of My Life...

okay,i cant believe that my day was pretty full..

not only today,i mean this few day passed as well...

im faith for it...

non stop to rush up my stuff for my China journey after i got back from Ns..

woke up damn early these two days because of the visa..

proud of myself cz i done it pretty well by myself^^

Let start from Tuesday.

my dearest grandpa came to my place alone from Kedah on Monday morning..

which mean is the same day that i back from Ns..

he is really made me worry!

80++ still so active...=.=

but he is worry me actually..

bacause of my "King" aka my father...

almost get a 3rd World War with my father becuase he is really made me mad !

and he is the one TTLY and made my dear(grandpa) worry me..

cause my grandpa know how is my "King"!

the issue between me and my "king" and "queen" is really annoying me!

but fine,i had use to it long long time ago..

so,i bring along my dear to Bank of China to settle my visa early in the morning by cab yesterday.

send my dear to Pudu and accompany my dear till the bus ciao..

i gave some pocket money to him because its really heart pain when i look at my dear..

even i had poor enuff=.=

but im glad that i can affort to give him the amount of money..

just hope he and grandma will be well at home town..

so meet Natalie up at Ou after that..

and i went back to sleep after...

cause really cant stand it ady...

funny shit happen after that...

i drive!

muahahaha!

ya,i do drive~~

i drive G's car around Chandren..woohoo~~

feel great,i done not bad~^^

then went cc as usual till im really cant tahan..

cause im ill...

got home and rest..*_*

he capture this when im almost die...=.=

we saw this at LDP toll..

-WEDNESDAY-

woke up early in the morning again cz need collect my visa.

cant wake the Mr.fatty G up and i called cab at the end..

but he woke up suddenly and i got to cancelled my cab that was just called=.=

go to the shopping centre just beside Bank Of China to exchange the RMB...

RM250 can exchange RMB516=.=

meet Desmond up to get my Seremban Fashion Show's photo at Wisma UOB

that opporsite KLCC..

went Pavillion after that tot just wanted to hang around cz we passed by there..

i saw the bag from Zara again!!!

i really wanted to buy it...unfortunately... .T_T.

i want that!!

why that is damn fucking expensive??!

sob...

we go for a movie when im still so down...

The Incredible Hulk

okay,feel much better after the movie...

rush to Kuchai Lama after that due to meet Ruby up..

this the 1st time i went to their new company..

Image Model Accedemy...

look quite ok to their company..

and so sorry i will not take any corse^^

just for sosial to went there...

so Pearl point is our following station after that...

meet huaiz ren up to get my photo in the passed pageant..

i got to back home finally after that..

wanted to take a nap but my "king" is really noisy=.=

Argggg!!!

get up shower and pack my stuff...

went sean's shop to get a elegant,sexy evening gown for my grand final..

its really pretty...i love it...thx sean..

plan to have a drink with Kenneth but cancelled suddenly..

and now im not feeling well again...=.=

i think i need to rest..

nitez,muakz.

loves,

pat

i got it ~

i think this took when im form 2..went Australia that time...swt..

colourful man~

Kung Fu Panda vs Kung Fu Penguin~

lolzz~

Once Upon a Time...

get those photozz from Huaiz Ren today..

its alot..

but som is too "scary"

some is not nice..

and im tired too..

so just let urs see some of it~

^^

im the suria klcc=.='''
notty on the stage..miss her...
i cant rmb when is this...

those two photo above should be long long time ago...

Miss Selangor Metro..
wow!




miss Selangor Metro2008...

I know i can survive,I'm the hero for myself.

Hero-Mariah Carey

The song for myself,and those who are surviving..

My sky is colourful.My world always up side down..

Thx god i got back from Ns finally...

really thx alot for my agent,my parents and Mr.G..

they do help me a lot...

even many issue hapen during that..

but now i know,

i really need to fight hard for my life...

i fight everything...

and i will keep fighting...

even that will be hard..

but its worth for it.

proud of myself^^

yea,im doing what i really want,

-BEING TOUGH-

new life,new pat.

loves,

pat

thx alot to set me free.
i had been here twice...
the sky at the highway when im on my way back..
the picture msg from Mr.G...

my bed..
yea...we do take bath here...
the clour of the water in our bathroom...=.=
need to pay for the washing machine...
our wash room...

the sky outside my dorm...
lolzz

now u know...

my mum gave me these...^^

the sky at Kuantan...
emo in the bus....
the G...
the morning before i leave..

My Sky Is Black...Cant feel The Sun..

cant sleep even im really tired..

dint go clubb cz fever suddenly...

is that a good thing?

cry like hell just now..

cause some made me sad and some made me really touch..

im really thx for mr.G right here with full of my heart..

thx for u always really beside me...

even i did some things made him really sad before..

some thing made me feel the sun which is

i got a phone call from Bornie just now..

an invitation from China goverment for

Miss Leisure International...

so i got to take leave to China...

the flight on tuesday..

but still need to back to jail after i come back from china...

but i just hope i can get leave successful...

pray for me..

pat still here

-3 hours more-

i will really miss and loves...

pat.

Time Start to Pass before you know you was Frozen...

Having lunch with Nicole and Nicholas..
our beautiful drinks...

pray for me..

i know u will miss me Tooee...

the sky is blue again today..at LDP..

Today,is friday...
the last day im still here...
haven done many things..
but what to do?
time is moving on...
I just can wish it will not so torture...
even i had being torture right now...
got to enjoy my last night.....
.T_T.
dont know how tonight would be...
hope tonight i still awake to done the last post...
i really Hope kuantan got CC !!!
but i prefer i get pretty drunk tonight...

pat still here
-The Last Day-
loves and miss,
pat

Everything mean Nothing...

so excited my 1st time been Friday~woohoo~
my November sea breeze,his coke and her coke light~

yea~my beloved mushroom soup...

my cheese burger.

and nicholas's friday cheese burger...any difference?

woohoo~~i love cheeses!

Aileng's~

wow!

lolzz~

nice cutting skill i have~

its really nice~

both of us are monster!!!

i bought this...

I DO LOVE IT!!! I WANT SIZE 4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thx alot for the one who always beside me...

yuck!

gor, can i smoke??lolzz

thier uniform...

joey...and me..

penguin and cow~

the guys..

that maison...

thx Darren...

met Aileng at Ou yesterday after i tot go for the body check..
Having our really late lunch at Friday...
T.G.I Friday..
O.M.G.I Friday is for me..
got a really fulfill lunch,and me and aileng decided get some exercise..
^^
The last spot we stop is Zara..
tat wanna get a bag from there but too bad i got a cloth at the end..
=.=
cause she keep saying nice....
went to the curve after that...
i decided to buy the sport shoes..
but...unfortunately..no my size...
in every branch!!!
sob...
i really love that..
why i always can get the thing i love...
tot wanted buy some thing at Ikea..but cant get it also...
pick up momo after that..
having our late dinner at Manjalara steamboat...
then maison after that..
tat will be fun...
but disappointed...
Darren pick me up and we decided to yam cha at steven's corner...
reach home around 5am...
and that is 5am FRIDAY...