I Feel cold.

Tonight,makes me think so much.

i was dump by my friens.

i dint go poppy on my wonderful saturday night.

i had been working so tired on this moring till late.

i dint sleep at all from last night.

cause im drunk at poppy last night.

thats ady 6am some thing and i need to go work on 7am.

i'm damn drunk.its really made me down last night.

i cant stop crying when i heard some songs in friend's car.

i recall many manny things.

happy,unhappy.

i sent msg to him again.

i cant get control...

sorry.

he dint reply,dint scold me..

i should be live so good right now.

but,i really did my best.

it always made me down.

i dint want the best thing.

i dint have high request.

but,nomatter what i did.

its useless.

i still like this.

i really hate this.

i just wanna be a normal happy person.

i just want my life to be simple.

what so difficult.

i really dint understand.

i really wanna alive.

O U T O F S E E O U T O F M I N D

Life is busy.

working,clubbing..life is full of function events..

thats good...

i just passed my 18th birthday.

not thing special,just clubbing whole week.

life is changing,pat is changing.

i hope thats good as well..

talk to him that day..

we argue again..talk to him just because miss his voice..

but we cant talk properly...

funny shit.

they only thing that is feel comfort to me is,

he not take me as a normal friend when we meet..

as a dude...i think..

i fall in love in a hong kong drama lately.

that a movie around a big and complicated family..

the last episod i watched,

is talking about a love story between a girl with 2 guys.

the girl name "sum nui",

that is "ling B" and "gun ka zai".

"sum nui" and "gun ka zai" are a pair of good firend till they

become couple while they are still a small lil kid.

something happen made them leave each other for 10years.

when the time meet ady grow up.

"gun ka zai" still love and protect "sum nui".

but "sum nui" fall in love with "lingB".

the problem is "ling B" has a girlfriend for 7 years...

"sum nui" still in love with him even she knew it.

and they are so in love..

but the issue appear at the end.

that is a long long story.

its hard to tell you all the story.

http://www.new.facebook.com/pages/TVB-Moonlight-Resonance-/20119696193?ref=nf

check it out^^

i felt it in heart when im watching.

you should know why.

but i really letting it go..

waiting my brand new life...

but,i really need to thx to him.

he teach me a lot.

he let me learn a lot.

he made me tough.

thx...dude.

i hope we can have a beautiful future.

mayb...10years later?

who know?

Pat is getting alive.

I hope i can sing it lound...

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blind and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind but then I knew it,
My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.



Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

k e e p R u n n i n g

yea~

keep falling down and keep getting up then keep running..

my life still like this..

not thing much change..

busy till no time on9 lately..

is that good?

finally im free today.

took wen seng's house key and use his com~~

muahahaha!

let get update^^

i was so supprise when i got this...
the 1st crown in my life^^
so this is a nice and good experince^^
we had a photo shoot in LCCA^^

Do rE Mi~~our funny uniform, to avoid the plant

bang us..lol

air asia officer^^
the next station.we went to sepang gold coast beach side..

and that what i got..sob..cause we need to cross the rock to the middle os sea..

to get the best photo...

my leg still keep on bleeding after cleaning=.=

this is the sky i took lately^^i love the last one most...
i want this i want this!!!

i spot this at sungei wang..

wait me,i will be back!

M I S S I N G

Finally im here...

realy long time not here..
why i'm here now,cause im sick..
i hate to be here some time..
it make me feel sad..emo...i think......

had been quite busy these passed time.
non stop working,
non stop clubbing,
non stop flirting,
non stop playing,
still falling down,
got up after that,

and still keep on forgetting.
not thing much change.
I'm still loser.