HAHAHAHAA!!

I think im going insane!
will you laugh suddenly with no reason?
will you laugh when actually you wanna cry??
will you laugh when you alone??
will you laugh non stop like this???

hahahahahahaaa!!!!!!!

will you dont give a fucking care when you actually fucking sick??
will you just leave yourself when you ashma??
will you stay home alone and repeat wathcing the fucking same movie???

you want me dont reject if someone really love me there??
you said you wont hurt me when actually you hurt me...
the one love me out there from willing change everything for me...
till give me up...
i just dont want being just like this...its cheat him and cheat myself...
i tried also...but now he just think that im immature,childish,played him,cheated him...
and im just a bitch !!!!!!

I lost my confident,im lost when i standing on stage..
i want fight for the chance but i stand back at the end...
speechless,helpless,hopeless,mind blank,soul-less,lost..
is that what i am now??

I sad,i down,i emo before...
i just non stop party,non stop drinking...
if that is a quite serious issue,i will just keep that life stlye continue few days..
after that i will become happy again...
now,i go out, sitting aside,not really drink...
even not feel like going out...
rather stay home alone...
let my angel and devil fight there...

Is that my fault that i want one last fight?
is that my fault that i dont want regret the rest of my life?
i really lost...i aim-less...dont know what should i do...
sit like an idiot...

Ya..i know i should't like this...
i have to make up myself...
have to be mature...

but can somebody tell me,if you are me,
what will you do ??
what is mature? what is immature??

It karma!!
its that i really deserve it??!

yayaya...open up my heart...
rest,dont think so much...
forget abt it...

hahahahaaa!!! can you do it??
or maybe i really weak, a loser...
I CANT TAKE IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

学会沉默　　
有时候，你被人误解，你不想争辩，所以选择沈默。本来就不是所有的人都得了解你，因此你认为不必对全世界喊话。却也有时候，你被最爱的人误解，你难过到不想争辩，也只有选择沈默。全世界都可以不懂你，但他应该懂，若他竟然不能懂，还有什么话可说?那么，不想说话，就不说吧，在多说无益的时候，也许沈默就是最好的解释。　　
至少平静　　在你跌入人生谷底的时候，你身旁所有的人都告诉你：要坚强，而且要快乐。坚强是绝对需要的，但是快乐？在这种情形下，恐怕是太为难你了。毕竟，谁能在跌得头破血流的时候还觉得高兴？但是至少可以做 到平静。平静地看待这件事，平静地把其他该处理的事处理好。平静，没有快乐...