HAHAHAHAA!!

I think im going insane!
will you laugh suddenly with no reason?
will you laugh when actually you wanna cry??
will you laugh when you alone??
will you laugh non stop like this???

hahahahahahaaa!!!!!!!

will you dont give a fucking care when you actually fucking sick??
will you just leave yourself when you ashma??
will you stay home alone and repeat wathcing the fucking same movie???

you want me dont reject if someone really love me there??
you said you wont hurt me when actually you hurt me...
the one love me out there from willing change everything for me...
till give me up...
i just dont want being just like this...its cheat him and cheat myself...
i tried also...but now he just think that im immature,childish,played him,cheated him...
and im just a bitch !!!!!!

I lost my confident,im lost when i standing on stage..
i want fight for the chance but i stand back at the end...
speechless,helpless,hopeless,mind blank,soul-less,lost..
is that what i am now??

I sad,i down,i emo before...
i just non stop party,non stop drinking...
if that is a quite serious issue,i will just keep that life stlye continue few days..
after that i will become happy again...
now,i go out, sitting aside,not really drink...
even not feel like going out...
rather stay home alone...
let my angel and devil fight there...

Is that my fault that i want one last fight?
is that my fault that i dont want regret the rest of my life?
i really lost...i aim-less...dont know what should i do...
sit like an idiot...

Ya..i know i should't like this...
i have to make up myself...
have to be mature...

but can somebody tell me,if you are me,
what will you do ??
what is mature? what is immature??

It karma!!
its that i really deserve it??!

yayaya...open up my heart...
rest,dont think so much...
forget abt it...

hahahahaaa!!! can you do it??
or maybe i really weak, a loser...
I CANT TAKE IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!