BEING TOUGH

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Dj Tiesto - Traffic

yea yea~~
this da music i love...
miss that time that i organise a fashion show in school...
always use this song almost every shows...
lol...sound like so geng..
just small event during school time...

I'm not that Innocent,I'm an Angel with Toxic.

The happiness of my life depends on the quality of my thoughts.

A sharp tongue can cut my own throat.

The heaviest thing I can carry is a grudge.

One thing I can give and still keep...is my word.

The pursuit of happiness is the chase of a lifetime! It is never too late to become what I might have been.

shopping alone at one u this afternoon..then went to Mid valley after G came..

feel so weird just shopping with him...*_*
my heart so pain!!!!!

i bought a Shuemura's make up remover cleanser...

280!!!

i wont buy it if not for my face good...

plan wanna buy bra today...sob..

but lucky i got a ring for myself~

sound so pity..gonna buy ring for myself...

but i enjoy it!

i lost my ring during the Miss cheongsam Malaysia..

i bought another same as that one i lost..

beside that, i also bought a sweater.

feel so weak recently...

when to weng seng house after shopping..

mr.W~

watching hong kong movie till 11pm just went out for my late dinner...

cause all the dude were playing ps...

yea,PS...swt...

Indo mee again today...

i think i had ate indo mee 3 or 4 days in row...

i'm so kinda hor lian...

do saw those baby's photo i post?

damn cute right ?

i received it from one of my fren through email.

dont know how is my baby look like in future..

lol...you know what,

i tot i just marry with some one and just be a dumb housewife...

have a cute lil baby~lol,funny right ?

that what i tot long long time ago..

but for now,

i really got plan it..

but life is not that easy...

i plan i wanna get a baby before 28..

then i will not have age cage with my child next time...

but,before that,"No BMW No marry".

lol..not that mean im greedy...

i mean i just will marry after every thing stable...

that mean that time i also can afford a BMW car...

not the guy~muahahaha~~

maybe i can share with him~

why BMW ?

BMW = Be My Wife

sweet right ?

hehe~~

took when do nothing at mr.W's house...lol

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

My Heart Will Go On - Celine Dion

Every night in my dreams
I see you. I feel you.
That is how I know you go on.

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on.

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never go till we're one

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

There is some love that will not
go away

You're here, there's nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

for your information,i cried every time when i watch Titanic...

really so touch and so respect for the way they love!

found some romance and sweet in the hard time...

sorry now a day i always listen all those sad song...

Richard Marx-Right here waiting for you

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

i love this song so much~

*i will be right here waiting for you*

so sad but so sweet...

Baby,one more time...

Artist Site

finally i found it !

Holly Valance ~ Kiss Kiss

im finding this song long long time ady!
i found it !
this is the 1st song i dance...
that time im still is the small lil junior...
wow~happy^.^v

Nice thing have to share~

The Platters - Smoke gets in your eyes

nice song nice song~
i'm damn love this song before~
and now too~

The Platters - Only You

i think you know this song rite~

Monday, May 19, 2008

Smile with Sweet When i Think Back,Keep Smiling to Move Forward,Even Thats Tough.

what the hell is going on!!

i really hate this!

i was wrote a long long blog just now and it just disappear suddenly again !!

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!

am i dumb??

sob.....

i was so excited just now cause finally i get online...

FINE !

what i had did this few days?

i went for a video shoot with Angela on last friday night..

its not a tvc,its for a company to post on their website..

its a funny video and its really funny during working..

and most happy is 700 on the spot~

muahahaha~~

next,

worked for Chivas at Genting on saturday.

Celcom X-live party~

im not really enjoyed cause im working...

my sad always come after happy,

cause some fucking issue happen..

because of the issue i lost one pageant and two jobs on sunday!

i ffk the AFOS Racequeen.

so sorry for the organiser...

i lost a Thailand fashion show,and a tvc job in the same day!

and the tvc job i had shortlised for the feature!

i hate that issue deeply in my heart!

lucky,

i got a nice chill out session with my cute lil aileng~

xoxoxo

we were drunk last nite by only beer!

i don't know how many we had drank,

but the bill is around 500!!

i my face got a scar right now..

i don't know what happen last night and my cheek is kena snatch by some thing...

.T_T.

not pretty ady...

no ppl want me ady...

sob sob sob

i met one of aileng's friend,

he is also like to listen those lou chai song~

nice to meet you,Cageon~

i felt so down after i receive the letter from that day onwards...

the letter from Nasional Servise...

my camp at Kuantan...

Kuantan.........

haiz..

i gonna ciao on 14June...

that is 14Sept when i back...

thats my BIRTHDAY !!

can i come back early..........

i gonna do whaever i want to...

cause i gonna bored till die in camp...

*sos please,some one help me!*

Friday, May 16, 2008

If Your Sky is Grey Just let Me Know

normal life to me this few days..

no work,but going for 3 pageant in a week...

that is the 1st time i cant get in to the final on wednesday night...

Miss Wilayah Tourism Of The Year 2008

wow...really upsad till now...

went to Tuborg training today,

but i think is an interview...

the women want us take off our heels due to know how tall actually we are...

=.=lucky im not so short in them...

but aileng...lol

kk,sayang my dear~~

hope i can get the job...

but that is damn tired if i got that,

cause i need to rush back on sunday morning b4 10am..

for the AFOS Race Queen final at sepang...

meet them up at bt.Jalil...

don't know can i rush for a Thailand's Fashion show before 4pm at Pearl point hotel on the same day...

before that,i need to go KLCC for the Seremban fashion show's briefing tomorrow...

then maybe have a chill out session with my castrol ultraman,

otherwise i will go poppy~~

muahahaha!!!

rushing rushing rushing...

just to make myself busy..

make my life full...

but,honestly,my life is really improve...

not only that,

me myself also...

~I finally stopped tripping on my youth

I needed to grow

And finally my mate has met my soul~

yea~~

finally,lil penguin is growing up~

glad to hear that ?

i will get a freaking good care for myself..

no worries..

notice my title?

if your sky is grey just let me know..

i'm always here for you...

i'm a good listener...

because my sky is become sunny~

okay..

i should slpeep early a bit..

cause my body and face had gave a lot of signal to me...

good night my dear~

love you

muackz !

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

WHAT THE FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i had wrote mmy bog just now for a hour.....................

used full of my heart and feel...

mana tahu..........................

all my things dissapear !!!!!!!!!

oh fuck !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really got no ideal for it...

i tot got save in draft...

but i cant found any thing.........

so sad... .T_T.

sob...really feel like wanna cry......................................

what strong with me.........

scream !!!!!!!!!!!

emo now!

but still miss you...

pat

Monday, May 12, 2008

tEE Hee~~some one told me...

suddenly woke up early in the morning today...

talk to my mum...feel like thounsand years never talk to her...

listen to her favorite music...

is my fav also actually...

still remember i always sing all those song and know all tha lyrics...

^^v pround of myself~~

the 1st disc my mum play is mandarin old song...

that song i post today,i ady know before the jay chow's movie...

for those my dear banana darlyn,

since you let me know many english and malay songs,

now i recomment you all this song...

trust me..really nice~

"Lover's tear"

this the name..

so,pround of myself again~~

>.<

the 2nd disc my mum played was a english old song...

500 miles from Peter,Paul and Mary still is my favorite song...

i cant remember what song else...

show you all at the next blog...

i went to slept again after chit-chat with my queen...

woke up 1pm some thing..

get ready to mind share to return the stupid uniform...

went to old klamg road for a catalog photo shoot after that...

i'm wearing sari !!!

wow~after baju kurung then now sari...

pround of myself again ~~

went to Mc.donald beside IKEA meet up momo for my breakfast,lunch and dinner...

sob...

but !! some thing made me damn fucking happy till now~~

i was having my mc.d just now rite?

2 ladies are sitting the next table beside me,

when i wanna cao,the 2 ladies cao also...

one of the lady turn her body suddenly,

and told me some thing..

you know what she told me ?

"you are so pretty~"

wow~~~~~~~~~~~~~

honestly,i really damn fucking happy till now~~

hohohohohohohoho~~~

then now,i'm alone again at cc...

swt...

later meet up they all to have movie~~

tired la wei!!

but i wanted to watch also...^^

kk,my dear.

got to go,

cause all of them are waiting me outside ady~~

kena marah ady~

bye,muackz!!

love you~

this the photo i took on friday nite...on my way back from pasion..

after return my stupid uniform from Mindshare..

do u noe the pose is damn tired...woo..

emo...

this is one of the mother's day present~>.<

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Again The Nissan New GT-R35

red is nice~~

i got it back finally !!

all those photo i lost when the two fucker snatch my phone...

i got all those photo from one of my fren that study at japan..

he took all those photo at the Nissan New GT-R35 launch at japan...

chat with Kitto through Msn just now..

he send me all the photos again~~

happy~~^^

you are always my darzz!!

anyway,Kitto is my dude that i know when i just form4...

we meet at a cat walk..that he told me just now...

i oso forgot...

he screw me 99 just now...

sob.....

i also dont why so close with him even though he ady study at japan now...

mayb he always let me bully 99...

miss you la wei!!!

no one let me bully now.....

he is my darz dude,Lim Boon Keat~~

MUAHAHHAAHAHA~~~

seem like not thing to write aedy...

doing not thing alone at cc...

kk,end here...

oh ya...

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY~

(i love you mum,even happen many between us)

Cry On My Shoulder , I Need a Shoulder...

If the hero, never comes to you
If you need someone, you're feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you're alone
If you call your friends, nobody's home
You can rum away, but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life, they are free

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven, where we'll go
If heaven is, a million years away
Oh just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your side
I promise you, I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

i'm a ordinary girl in my 18 age...

but all the happen make me cant be a 18...

the way i grew up,my family background,my charactor...

i should be mature...think twice before i do anything..

i really feel tired to be that...

wanna have nap...

lat ppl love me,

protect me,

listen me,

care me,

hug me...

i need a shoulder....

let me lie on that...

rest for a while...

just a while...

but i'm alright...

use to be alone...

being tough right?

that what i said from the begining......

cheer my dear!

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Finally i wrote..

my lychee martini,and nic's apple mojisto~ (if im not mistaken^^)

nic and me at 7 ate nine~

hey hey~~

i got share many song to your recently...

"sharing is caring"...

lolzz!

finally i write my blog now..

i got a prety 'busy' day yesterday..

i went to Extreme car mag's photo shoot at some way near by IOI mall...

sorry i cant tell what car is that..

you will know if you buy Extreme car mag~

(see how good im)

i got two photo yesterday actually...

but one of that had cancel suddenly..

hehe...i got back home and take a sweet nap...

woke up at 6 some thing i think...

i also forgot what i did...

pai sei..

but i still remember i went 7 ate nine...

such a nice place there~

they seem like play all the music for me..

cause all the songs they play are my favorite!

sweet~~

went Passion after that..

feeling KL are so weird last night...

not much car on the road..

not much people in the club..

you know why ?

cause all go Port Dickson ady !!

rave party...

=.=

anyway,i got to go now...

yam cha with momo thn go Velvet after that...

~Wake Up In The Saturday's Night~

after photo shoot~~

before photo shoot...

Take A Bow-Rihanna

Ohh, how about a round of applause,
Yeah, standin’ ovation,
Ooh ohh yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah

You look so dumb right now,
Standin’ outside my house,
Tryin’ to apologize,
You’re so ugly when you cry,
Please, just cut it out

Don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not,
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught,
But you put on quite a show (ooh),
You really had me goin’,
But now it’s time to go (ooh),
Curtain’s finally closin’,
That was quite a show (ooh),
Very entertainin’,
But it’s over now (but it’s over now),
Go on and take a bow, ohh ohh.

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone),
You better hurry up,
Before the sprinklers come on (come on),
Talkin’ ’bout girl, I love you, you’re the one,
This just looks like the re-run,
Please, what else is on.

And don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not (mmm),
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught (mmm),
But you put on quite a show (oh),
You really had me goin’,
But now it’s time to go (oh),
Curtain’s finally closin’,
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin’,
But it’s over now (but it’s over now),
Go on and take a bow, ohh.

And the award for the best liar goes to you (goes to you),
For makin’ me believe that you could be paithful to me,
Let’s hear your speech out,
How about a round of applause,
A standin’ ovation.

But you put on quite a show (oh),
You really had me goin’,
But now it’s time to go (oh),
Curtain’s finally closin’,
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin’,
But it’s over now (but it’s over now),
Go on and take a bow.

But it’s over now

hmmmm...i know tis song from Nicole...

she ask me sonng for G...=.=

anyway,just wanna sharewith you all...

Taylor Swift - Tear Drop On My Guitar

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's so damn funny
But I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

i freaking like this song suddenly...

mayb Taylor Swift is damn fucking prety in this MV...

exspecially her eyes...

i put kena shock~

woohoo~~~

beside that...

the lyric is meaningfull...

hmmm...such a good song..^^

Friday, May 9, 2008

Finally - Fergie

MMMMMMMMMM

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day
But I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes
I couldn't comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told I left it in the cold
Walking through an open door that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth

I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

[chorus]
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

MMMMMMMM

I remember the beginning you already knew
I acted like a fool
Just trying to be cool
Fronting like it didn't matter
I just ran away
And on another phase
Was lost in my own space
Found what its like to hurt selfishly
Scared to give of me
Afraid to just believe
I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place
Stumbled through the mess that I have made

Finally got out of my own way
I've Finally started living for today
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

[chorus]
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have a different set
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Gave my love to him Finally

MMMMMMMM

Finally, Finally

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something beautiful is happening, happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

Ohhhhhhh, Finally, Finally, finally

AduiHai...

feel weird i dint go clubbing tonight...=.=
tot wanna stay at home and sleep early after came back from shopping~
cause i got two photoshoot at tomorrow early in the morning...
gonna die~~~~~~~

why i suddenly post that song?
cause i miss the moment when i dance with the song in club... T.T

kk,never mind,i still get many victories from my shopping session today~
MUAHAHAHAHAHA~~~~~~~~^.^
i bought a tub top red in colour,a long sleeve shirt in white,my fresh look,
my mother's day present,and much much more...lolzz~
happy happy~^^

i view AiLing's blog just now,
found out some thing very cute and funny!!
i try to search in you tube,
hehe,i got it~~
here you go~

My Tuzki

Tuzki Green

haha,got the so zai Tuzki and my fav PENGUIN !

LaLa dance

hahhaahahahahahaha...i laugh like hell after watch this video...hahaaha...

Thursday, May 8, 2008

my car~in my dream~

Nissan GT-R35

MR. Fair,Nissan Fair lady is my previous dream car,

but it changed after i saw the Nissan new GTR...

lolzz~~

the GTR has all the right exterior details,such as the GT-R badges,the finely

crafted taillights and the monstrous 6-piston Brembos lurking behind the front

forged wheels.

Shiro Nakamura,Nissan's chief creative officer,admits that the styling

of the new GT-R is influenced by the popular Gundam anim...

what do you think abt that ?

from what i read from Hypertune mag,the Supercar interior is simply and

driver biased.the body hugging seat,an auto that drives like a manual,

the great audio from bose.....

the GTR's interior is a true no-nonsense, straight to the point,

real driver's interior.

the information from Hypertune mag,the GT-R's engine is VR38DETT,

i not sure what that,but sound like so geng~~lolz...

3.9litre V6,twin turbocharged,95.5mm bore,

88.4mm stroke, cast aluminum cylinderblock with high endurance/

low-friction plasma-sprayed bores,

IHI twin turbochargers,one per cylinder bank.....

actually,i got a bit blur ady,

cause some im not really know what that...-_-

but i will learn ! muahahaha~~~

kk,even i got my new Nissan GTR35,

also never forgot my previous baby,

Nissan FairLadyZ~~

ita also is a cool baby~~

-Nissan FairLadyZ-

time to start my reading session...

wow..finally i bought a book to spend my boring time...

just got it from Popular book shop,Jusco..

this is a long-awaited book by one of Malaysia's most intersting entrepreneurs.

how Tan Sri Lim Goh Tong built Genting Highlands into a world-class resort

has been well-publicised.but this is the first time readers are offered an insight into his life and

unique approach.

His story is an inspiring one: beginning with nothing to his name,turning difficulties

into opportunities,acting on brainwaves talking calculated risks

and confounding sceptics through sheer foresight and perseverance.

Typically modest, Tan Sri Lim gives an account that is refreshingly original,

wryly humorous and moving in its poignancy.

baby pat,time to read ~