S U P P R I S E

photo shooting for finalist...im the finalist number 1..
honest...i was so supprise...

the carlsberg sponsor..

the judges...

bikini round...

all of us^^

top 3^^

i really cant believe i got 2nd runner up...i was so so so supprise

and so so so happy...
all the finalist are so pretty and i had prepared i got nothing home...

thanks for everyone who support me^^

i'll keep it up!

N E W * O L D

Life life life...

i dint ber-blog for a long while...

my life is quite enjoy lately^^

i have daddy Jason and mummy Brandon to sayang me...

i got my "boss" to bully^^

im still is a clubber...

still love shopping still working still smooking still the same pat..

but more lovely i think^^

im having a long nice hair now^^

its makes me feel excite and pain..

cz i spend almost Rm1000 for the hair...

Life being good^^

very good...

fulfil...

but need to keep it up...

for more and more happiness^^

B O R E D O F T H A T

That is playing "bleeding love" now.

not much feeling on that right now..

met benjamin just now,

such a long time dint see him.

we talk about some thing old...

felt that..every thing is passed..

its over...

finally i can leave it.

may be i found some thing now.

but i felt im droping down as before.

so i swear i will not let myself be that!

no matter how tough you are,

also need a warm sweet hug from some one you love.

no one will be tough forever.

single life,i hate it but i enjoy it.

couple life,love it and appreciate it.

hard to get true love.

BLEEDING LOVE

I BORED ABOUT IT

I DONT GIVE A FUCKING DAMN ON IT

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y

Today is a big day for my dear...

finally he is 21 years young...

me and him dint mention any thing about his birthday..

but i ady know what i need to do..

i read his blog just now.

felt sad..

he is a good guy..

but good guy not suppose to belongs to me.

it just will get hurt..

he's too goood..

u know what..

its really annoying me every time when u call me when im sleeping or im drunk..

but...at lease u call me...

even my parents dint call me also.

i think he is the only one who still care me that much right now.

even i hurt him a lot...

sorry...and thanks...

you gave me really A LOT.

cheer up my dear...

i will not forgot what we had last time..

move on...

many things are waiting for us...

may be some thing better in front..

god bless you.

i still love you..but the love for friendship.

-HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR-

~MUACKZ~

R U N N I N G

Got a long long penguin's story from a friend just now..

reliaze that i really never ber-blog in a while time..

how was me?

still that same..

yea...

same..

i just finish up all the girls profile send to client.

i took a rest while im doing that..

and suddenly feel like need a hug from my back.

it sweet and warm..

never mind...

just wait.

its just begin...

cause i saw and i found...

Every thing still need to go on.

Seem like long time never been here.

my life still the same.

but i stopped flirt^^

find out the reason by ur own..

im still working every day,still club...

still doing whatever im doing..

but im confusing..

why i never get fulfill...

is that a normal being?

human is greedy.

am i right?

LIFE...

I Feel cold.

Tonight,makes me think so much.

i was dump by my friens.

i dint go poppy on my wonderful saturday night.

i had been working so tired on this moring till late.

i dint sleep at all from last night.

cause im drunk at poppy last night.

thats ady 6am some thing and i need to go work on 7am.

i'm damn drunk.its really made me down last night.

i cant stop crying when i heard some songs in friend's car.

i recall many manny things.

happy,unhappy.

i sent msg to him again.

i cant get control...

sorry.

he dint reply,dint scold me..

i should be live so good right now.

but,i really did my best.

it always made me down.

i dint want the best thing.

i dint have high request.

but,nomatter what i did.

its useless.

i still like this.

i really hate this.

i just wanna be a normal happy person.

i just want my life to be simple.

what so difficult.

i really dint understand.

i really wanna alive.

O U T O F S E E O U T O F M I N D

Life is busy.

working,clubbing..life is full of function events..

thats good...

i just passed my 18th birthday.

not thing special,just clubbing whole week.

life is changing,pat is changing.

i hope thats good as well..

talk to him that day..

we argue again..talk to him just because miss his voice..

but we cant talk properly...

funny shit.

they only thing that is feel comfort to me is,

he not take me as a normal friend when we meet..

as a dude...i think..

i fall in love in a hong kong drama lately.

that a movie around a big and complicated family..

the last episod i watched,

is talking about a love story between a girl with 2 guys.

the girl name "sum nui",

that is "ling B" and "gun ka zai".

"sum nui" and "gun ka zai" are a pair of good firend till they

become couple while they are still a small lil kid.

something happen made them leave each other for 10years.

when the time meet ady grow up.

"gun ka zai" still love and protect "sum nui".

but "sum nui" fall in love with "lingB".

the problem is "ling B" has a girlfriend for 7 years...

"sum nui" still in love with him even she knew it.

and they are so in love..

but the issue appear at the end.

that is a long long story.

its hard to tell you all the story.

http://www.new.facebook.com/pages/TVB-Moonlight-Resonance-/20119696193?ref=nf

check it out^^

i felt it in heart when im watching.

you should know why.

but i really letting it go..

waiting my brand new life...

but,i really need to thx to him.

he teach me a lot.

he let me learn a lot.

he made me tough.

thx...dude.

i hope we can have a beautiful future.

mayb...10years later?

who know?

Pat is getting alive.

I hope i can sing it lound...

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blind and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind but then I knew it,
My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.



Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

k e e p R u n n i n g

yea~

keep falling down and keep getting up then keep running..

my life still like this..

not thing much change..

busy till no time on9 lately..

is that good?

finally im free today.

took wen seng's house key and use his com~~

muahahaha!

let get update^^

i was so supprise when i got this...
the 1st crown in my life^^
so this is a nice and good experince^^
we had a photo shoot in LCCA^^

Do rE Mi~~our funny uniform, to avoid the plant

bang us..lol

air asia officer^^
the next station.we went to sepang gold coast beach side..

and that what i got..sob..cause we need to cross the rock to the middle os sea..

to get the best photo...

my leg still keep on bleeding after cleaning=.=

this is the sky i took lately^^i love the last one most...
i want this i want this!!!

i spot this at sungei wang..

wait me,i will be back!

M I S S I N G

Finally im here...

realy long time not here..
why i'm here now,cause im sick..
i hate to be here some time..
it make me feel sad..emo...i think......

had been quite busy these passed time.
non stop working,
non stop clubbing,
non stop flirting,
non stop playing,
still falling down,
got up after that,

and still keep on forgetting.
not thing much change.
I'm still loser.

Being LOVE Being HURT Being BLEEDING..

My life is crazy lately..

4 days clubbing in row a week.

even the next day work or sick.

being like that every week...

i dont know what the hell in my mind.

The mistake.

i dont know why i cant safe myself from the mistake..

still keep on worsen the mistake...

that cant made myself feel better..

instead made myself feel more lost more bad !

i fucking hate all these!

i wanna run away from these!

i really scare...i scare every thing..

i scare alone,i scare lonely...

especially i scare to face to the mistake i had made..

i had control it very well before..

but i lost control again..

i feel heart pain..

The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart...

i'm bluffing myself all the time..

my heart still bleeding actually...

i did many thing to stop that..

i dont even care is that alright for myself!

i just wanna run away from that...

but i failed...

we are the most familiar stranger now.

i think back the moment we had last time in the lonely silent night,

i really smile..but with the tears...

I didn't know where to turn to..

See somehow I can't forget you.

After all that we've been through..

Thinking that I deserve it..

Now I realise that I really didn't know..

If you didn't notice you mean everything..

Quickly I'm learning to love again.

All I know is I'll be ok.

funny shit!

if i can control better at the begining..

im a happy women right now...

maybe im a issue people in his eyes.

that the way he is..

i tot i can keep acting..

but that too hard...

but,dont worry...

i will not act pity to made you love me..

that just because i useless...

that why i only hate myself...

hate that i love you.

i love you just because that's you.

i try to move that on others..

but i failed again.

sorry..

Anyway..

i TRUST you're just dont want to hurt me,

not wanted lie to me..

who will let go easy if really been in love...

I dont think i couldn't live without you,

It's gonna hurt when it heals too.

It'll all get better in time..

And even though I really love you..

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time...

Since there's no more you and me.

It's time I let you go So I can be free.

And live my life how it should be.

No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you.

i trust i can...

my emo's song...

The kind of flawless I wish I could be...

She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love.

My dear friends..

plz dont ask what happen on me..

i use to recover by my own.

i'm still alright..

i just wanna release my own emotion in my own blog.

i will let you guys know if i get the right time.

but i dont think i will get that.

loves,

pat.

You raise me up, To more than I can be.

You Raise Me Up - Secret Garden feat. Brian Kennedy

There have a lot of difference ppl sing this song..

but i love this most...



When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

What Is Forever Love??

-HP Snapshot-

As usual,do this during bored time...

yi huey and me~
the cute lady and the mad lady..
many me and darren~
pat and zi wei~
guess guess guess~
guess again~
pat and jackson~

-Asia Cafe-

After the tired day...

time to enjoy my late dinner with Agatha at AC..^^

my pizza
omg..
this is real her...lol

-Hypertune Race Queen-

i had a funny night...

Azah and Pat
that all..
pose!
the prize.=.=
that all..

-Maison Night After Work-

went maison on thursday night after work..

i knew some one saw me and dint even say hi to me..

sad.

sorry,im not a fighter..but dont try to do any thing on me!

lol
the lovely ladies..

pat and ash
the ladies..
i just trying to act innocent..
lol~
i got no ideal what they are doing..

HP Road Show @ Sunway Pyramid

I felt into high fever on the last day-__-

work like a dead fish...

i like this..


can i have this?its a water filter...

baby Nat, what do you feel about this litter horse?



ooo...the funny magician~
He name is Aaron~a cute lil guy..
i want bear fever as well...

my lunch...

my Italianese~want some?
seem like condom advertise..lol!
the sky..
ppl drew it..
i colour it~not bad huh ?

Pat still Sick,

loves.