Home Sweet Home

my new home become a real home now..

my room also damn nice right now^^

so feel like stay at home these few day..

haha..

but actually the fact is no ppl date me lor....

sob..

rest for quite a while ady.

need to start working and start running ady...

money hard to find ah...

haiz..

so sien at home....

so, i move to cheras quite some time ady..

now only i really make it like a room...

Home Sweet Home...

from the outside..
my bed..

hehe

a bit messy=.=

2 small lil table..

penguins.....

penguinsss

mr.chuan so free do this for me^^

this also...

penguinssssssss...

the new shelf^^

i slept on my penguin..

muahaha!!!!!!!!!!

limited addition^^by huaizren..

try to be child^^

the jolene....loser..lol.....

penguin VS rabbit..lol

feel like really wana buy that day!!!!!!!

that all the photo i have....

some i upload to face book ady....

^^

loves,

pat

Day By Day

starting busy ady..

finish my wonderful CNY..

not much changing in my life..

and i found one thing which is really annoying me..

i always need to answer few questions...

1. Are you mix?

yes i am.

2. Are you Chindian?

Nop.

3. Mix with Malay?

No !

4. So what are you??

i'm a Chinese+Thailand+Portuguese...

5. What?! Rojak!

.....speechless....

6. You can speak cantonese??

yessssssssss........

Walao e.....

im damn boring on those questions ady la...

i think i should print a card...

haiz....

still have few question but i lazy to type.

Okay,dear friends,

i have a lot of photos wanna upload..

just give me some time..^^

Loves,

Pat.

S U P P R I S E

photo shooting for finalist...im the finalist number 1..
honest...i was so supprise...

the carlsberg sponsor..

the judges...

bikini round...

all of us^^

top 3^^

i really cant believe i got 2nd runner up...i was so so so supprise

and so so so happy...
all the finalist are so pretty and i had prepared i got nothing home...

thanks for everyone who support me^^

i'll keep it up!

N E W * O L D

Life life life...

i dint ber-blog for a long while...

my life is quite enjoy lately^^

i have daddy Jason and mummy Brandon to sayang me...

i got my "boss" to bully^^

im still is a clubber...

still love shopping still working still smooking still the same pat..

but more lovely i think^^

im having a long nice hair now^^

its makes me feel excite and pain..

cz i spend almost Rm1000 for the hair...

Life being good^^

very good...

fulfil...

but need to keep it up...

for more and more happiness^^

B O R E D O F T H A T

That is playing "bleeding love" now.

not much feeling on that right now..

met benjamin just now,

such a long time dint see him.

we talk about some thing old...

felt that..every thing is passed..

its over...

finally i can leave it.

may be i found some thing now.

but i felt im droping down as before.

so i swear i will not let myself be that!

no matter how tough you are,

also need a warm sweet hug from some one you love.

no one will be tough forever.

single life,i hate it but i enjoy it.

couple life,love it and appreciate it.

hard to get true love.

BLEEDING LOVE

I BORED ABOUT IT

I DONT GIVE A FUCKING DAMN ON IT

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y

Today is a big day for my dear...

finally he is 21 years young...

me and him dint mention any thing about his birthday..

but i ady know what i need to do..

i read his blog just now.

felt sad..

he is a good guy..

but good guy not suppose to belongs to me.

it just will get hurt..

he's too goood..

u know what..

its really annoying me every time when u call me when im sleeping or im drunk..

but...at lease u call me...

even my parents dint call me also.

i think he is the only one who still care me that much right now.

even i hurt him a lot...

sorry...and thanks...

you gave me really A LOT.

cheer up my dear...

i will not forgot what we had last time..

move on...

many things are waiting for us...

may be some thing better in front..

god bless you.

i still love you..but the love for friendship.

-HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR-

~MUACKZ~

R U N N I N G

Got a long long penguin's story from a friend just now..

reliaze that i really never ber-blog in a while time..

how was me?

still that same..

yea...

same..

i just finish up all the girls profile send to client.

i took a rest while im doing that..

and suddenly feel like need a hug from my back.

it sweet and warm..

never mind...

just wait.

its just begin...

cause i saw and i found...

Every thing still need to go on.

Seem like long time never been here.

my life still the same.

but i stopped flirt^^

find out the reason by ur own..

im still working every day,still club...

still doing whatever im doing..

but im confusing..

why i never get fulfill...

is that a normal being?

human is greedy.

am i right?

LIFE...

I Feel cold.

Tonight,makes me think so much.

i was dump by my friens.

i dint go poppy on my wonderful saturday night.

i had been working so tired on this moring till late.

i dint sleep at all from last night.

cause im drunk at poppy last night.

thats ady 6am some thing and i need to go work on 7am.

i'm damn drunk.its really made me down last night.

i cant stop crying when i heard some songs in friend's car.

i recall many manny things.

happy,unhappy.

i sent msg to him again.

i cant get control...

sorry.

he dint reply,dint scold me..

i should be live so good right now.

but,i really did my best.

it always made me down.

i dint want the best thing.

i dint have high request.

but,nomatter what i did.

its useless.

i still like this.

i really hate this.

i just wanna be a normal happy person.

i just want my life to be simple.

what so difficult.

i really dint understand.

i really wanna alive.

O U T O F S E E O U T O F M I N D

Life is busy.

working,clubbing..life is full of function events..

thats good...

i just passed my 18th birthday.

not thing special,just clubbing whole week.

life is changing,pat is changing.

i hope thats good as well..

talk to him that day..

we argue again..talk to him just because miss his voice..

but we cant talk properly...

funny shit.

they only thing that is feel comfort to me is,

he not take me as a normal friend when we meet..

as a dude...i think..

i fall in love in a hong kong drama lately.

that a movie around a big and complicated family..

the last episod i watched,

is talking about a love story between a girl with 2 guys.

the girl name "sum nui",

that is "ling B" and "gun ka zai".

"sum nui" and "gun ka zai" are a pair of good firend till they

become couple while they are still a small lil kid.

something happen made them leave each other for 10years.

when the time meet ady grow up.

"gun ka zai" still love and protect "sum nui".

but "sum nui" fall in love with "lingB".

the problem is "ling B" has a girlfriend for 7 years...

"sum nui" still in love with him even she knew it.

and they are so in love..

but the issue appear at the end.

that is a long long story.

its hard to tell you all the story.

http://www.new.facebook.com/pages/TVB-Moonlight-Resonance-/20119696193?ref=nf

check it out^^

i felt it in heart when im watching.

you should know why.

but i really letting it go..

waiting my brand new life...

but,i really need to thx to him.

he teach me a lot.

he let me learn a lot.

he made me tough.

thx...dude.

i hope we can have a beautiful future.

mayb...10years later?

who know?

Pat is getting alive.

I hope i can sing it lound...

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blind and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind but then I knew it,
My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.



Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

k e e p R u n n i n g

yea~

keep falling down and keep getting up then keep running..

my life still like this..

not thing much change..

busy till no time on9 lately..

is that good?

finally im free today.

took wen seng's house key and use his com~~

muahahaha!

let get update^^

i was so supprise when i got this...
the 1st crown in my life^^
so this is a nice and good experince^^
we had a photo shoot in LCCA^^

Do rE Mi~~our funny uniform, to avoid the plant

bang us..lol

air asia officer^^
the next station.we went to sepang gold coast beach side..

and that what i got..sob..cause we need to cross the rock to the middle os sea..

to get the best photo...

my leg still keep on bleeding after cleaning=.=

this is the sky i took lately^^i love the last one most...
i want this i want this!!!

i spot this at sungei wang..

wait me,i will be back!