Tried

I bring the fighter spirit last night.
i been steady and sportman...
i knew i did it best,i knew i tried my best.
i bring out my confidence,hold my sick,
block my fears..
Its all out of my expect..
i cant believe i can work it out like that even i been suck lately..
even my mood totaly out..
even maybe out of support by others..
i really love myself last night!
i go all the way alone..
all the way by myself...over come everythings..
and just fight for myself..

But god seem like still testing me...
still playing fool around me...
the luck never come to me..

Raining heavy out there is just like my heart..
when will my luck come..
i ady been thru all those shit..
why dont just give me some thing to make me happy and feel little of sweet...

I never give up even i was thinking to giving up..
for now i do really feel insecure and sad..
i tot i pay all heart and will get good return..
i never expect the best,but atlease give me better..

From morning till on the way to ipoh i just keep reminding myself to calm down and relax..
even untill the moment i stand on stage and look at the judge..
i really fight...and for me i think i not the best but i better...
is that i really dont deserve anything better??
others just do nothing and performance not well also and get it..
and me??

Never mind,i did my best..
and i got faith to myself..
i believe i will get best thing after all these!!
keep it up !

Loves,
Pat