what & why

Life is that just same as drama?
My life is getting dramatic..
Some thing happen makes me can't believe on that..
How could it happen on me?
I hope that's just a joke!
I can't get a way to express myself..
I lost a best friend that willing beside me when I down last time..
And now seem like he ditch me for someone..
I don't know how to tell cause it sound redicurous..
An operation that only got 39% living chance...
God really love to play on me..
Love to testing me...
I really lost..helpless..
I lost too many things..too many important treasure things..
I can't express myself or describe my mood by words..
Beside cry,what else I can do..